Couldn't sleep for the past few days. Usually I would just sit in bed thinking of nothing and when I think of nothing, I start to think of death. Not trying to be an emo shit or something but in one of the earlier posts I mentioned something of this sort. My greatest fear is death. I'm not scared of going to heaven or hell; Death I presumme is far worst than hell. Although I'm a christian (not confirmed yet though) somewhere deep down there in my heart I guestion his existence and then I go further to questionthe existence of heaven. The very first memory I ever had was the silence of darkness and then waking up shocked in the middle of the night, like all of a sudden I suddenly came to exist. That's why I tried to imagine death being the very opposite. So I guess my greatest fear is the silence. One day, we must all go to our silent grave never to be heard of again. Its a scary thought to me and thats why I'm gonna live life to fullest from now on.
I'm gonna smell those roses and enjoy every fuckin bit of it even those fucking thorns cause those thorns remind me that I'm still fucking alive.I'm gonna quit playing computer games, those things are stupid time wasters and aren't fun if your gonna play like an rpg by yourself or something. I'll probably still play multiplayer games with friends cause its them I'm playing for them, the ones that truelly matter. Gonna pick up as many instruments as possible.There's so much to see, so much to do. Never gonna regret my life.
Those out there who care enough for me that I might be turning into some weird hippie fag, don't worry. I'll still be that dumbass you always knew. I got this post to prove it. Cause why would anyone visit my dumbass blog?That's right no one. ;P
Note: OH and you. Yea you, the one sitting there reading my blog, laughing at me. If you haven't noticed, I just called you a nobody. :P
Someday - Sugar Ray
- Something From my childhood that I remeber till today.
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